The pattern is always the same. Someone floats a weekend trip, I go "yeah, let's do it," full enthusiasm, genuinely mean it in the moment. Then as the date creeps closer I just... go quiet in the group chat. Slower replies. Then no replies. Then some vague excuse or nothing at all.
At this point everyone in my life has quietly filed my "yes" under maybe, probably not. They plan around me flaking. I've become a known variable.
And here's the stupid part — I know exactly why I do it. It's easier to disappear later than to say no now. Saying no in the moment feels like disappointing someone to their face. Ghosting the plan feels like nobody's fault.
Still haven't figured out how to just be honest upfront. Working on it. Allegedly.