My ex-boyfriend didn't want children. I loved him so much that I convinced myself I didn't either. I told friends motherhood had never interested me and acted irritated when relatives asked.
After we broke up, I finally admitted to myself that I had been lying. I'm now married and have a daughter. The confession isn't that I changed my mind; it's that I abandoned my own preference because I was scared honesty would cost me a relationship. In the end, the relationship ended anyway.